the "two" curse

I have been having difficulties falling asleep, though I am much lacking of it due to midnight baby care. Too much thoughts... on wanting to become a super domestic goddess with 2 todds and a 0 month.

so being able to fall asleep to me now is like a dream come true, striking lottery. 

Tonight managed to sooth xYuan to sleep. then i fell asleep nicely out of fatigue. Then i was woke up by my "incredible 2 year old" Xuan ( crying frantically, throwing tandrum on me ) . my 2nd son, Xuan has been cranky and sick since the birth of his sister. I was annoyed n find it unacceptable that it was Xuan who woke me instead of the baby. I hit him.

I am slowly losing my patience on him. Constantly demanding attention and love from me. We are aware of the vulnerable 2nd child syndrome. sometimes parents can be just draining out.

Sorry, Xuan.